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SMK Music and their journey back to normal

By Maxfield English,

1 days ago
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Singer, songwriter, and music teacher, Susan Mohini Kane (aka SMK Music) had to put her music on hold briefly when the Eaton Fires displaced her from her home. It spiraled into a 20-month journey that included seven different places of residence while waiting to be able to return to her home in Altadena.

“It was really depressing and hard. We had to replace everything, tore the house down to the studs, then replace all the walls and floors and ceilings and roof. We lost everything,” said Kane. As she kept moving around, it was a battle against hopelessness. So much had to be done to be close to where she was before the fire.

“It felt like it would never end, because I was spending all my time trying to get it back. I was dealing with insurance, just trying to figure out where to get clothes. Some days it was so hard I didn’t want to leave the house, or I wouldn’t get out of bed. I needed to rebuild myself,” said Kane.

For some musicians, writing music can be cathartic. It can be as impactful as community, or finding people who are there to help, such as programs like Local Initiatives Support Corporation (LISC) Los Angeles’ Rebuild Lab where Kane was part of the cohort.

Like many businesses after the fire, it also affected her ability to connect with her clients. Many of them were displaced in their own right. It created a position where she had to look at how she approached her business and how she could still maneuver during the fire. Eventually, she settled on creating a Patreon site where she could connect with her clients.  It allowed her to still meet with the people she coached online, where she could finally do what she loved again.

That final moment of catharsis came from her own music. It eventually became Ready for the Wonderful, a song she released in August after she was fully moved back into her Altadena home.

Ready for the Wonderful is a culmination of the life, a reintroduced of herself.

“It’s finally getting out bed. I want to be something positive in the world, and it’s a choice. That choice of accepting the dark or the light,” said Kane.

Building herself back up took time, and choosing the light, and accepting that things were different but where there was beauty.

“I felt like a stranger in my own home. All the appliances beep in a new way I don’t know yet. All around you, construction is still going on. But now I get to have people in my house. There was a Saturday we got to make music together. I was so happy,” said Kane.

Kane’s life now has a chapter of rebirth. Going through something as traumatic as losing her home and moving away from business for a while introduced her to new forms of gratitude she takes into life. Soon, she plans to release a new protest song to mark another aspect of her forward momentum in life.

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