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‘I didn’t want to die that way’: Former Sacramento homeless meth addict becomes outreach navigator for others

‘I didn’t want to die that way’: Former Sacramento homeless meth addict becomes outreach navigator for others
TY: SACRAMENTO COUNTY’S HOMELESS POPULATION HAS EXPLODED TO NEARLY 9300 PEOPLE OVER THE LAST THREE YEARS, THE HIGHEST TOTAL ON RECORD ACCORDING TO THE LATEST POINT-IN-TIME COUNT. DESPITE THE OVERWHELMING NUMBERS, THERE ARE SUCCESS STORIES THAT DON’T ALWAYS MAKE THE HEADLINES. IN THIS WEEK’S COMMUNITY CHAMPION, I CAUGHT UP WITH A WOMAN WHO DEFIED ALL THE ODDS AND IS NOW SHOWING OTHERS THE PATH OUT OF HOMELESSNESS. >> WOW, IT’S COLD OUT HERE. >> I’M SO GLAD YOU CAME. OH, IT’S SO GOOD TO SEE YOU. >> A HEARTFELT EMBRACE. IT’S HOW TRACEY KNICKERBOCKER OFTEN BEGINS HER WORKDAY. THEN IT’S STRAIGHT TO BUSINESS. >> I HAVE MY CALENDAR. >> IN HER MOBILE OFFICE. >> I LOVE WORKING IN MY CAR. >> ON THIS THURSDAY, TRACEY IS HELPING ONE OF HER HUNDREDS OF HOMELESS CLIENTS THROUGH THE ARDUOUS PROCESS OF GETTING SERVICES AND HOPEFULLY INTO HOUSING. >> GETTING CERTIFICATES AND GETTING IDS ARE REALLY A CHALLENGE FOR FOLKS OUT HERE. SO NOW, JUST RECENTLY, SHE JUST FOUND OUT SOME GOOD NEWS. >> SOME GOOD NEWS TO TAKE THE STREETS IN SACRAMENTO. >> HEY ANTHONY, HOW YA DOING, MAN? >> IN NO TIME. >> HEY. >> TRACEY GETS STOPPED. >> I’M ONE OF THE ONES FOR 19 -- WHO LIVED OUT HERE FOR 19 YEARS. >> THE KIND OF RESPECT YOU CAN ONLY EARN THROUGH SHARED EXPERIENCE. >> ALL THOSE PEOPLE THAT USED TO COME OUT BY MY ENCAMPMENT, BRING US WATER, BRING US PRAYER, BRING US SOCKS STARTED POKING HOLES AT MY HEART. >> FOR TEN YEARS, TRACEY LIVED HOMELESS RIGHT HERE ON THESE STREETS, WITH ONE GOAL IN MIND. >> I WAS TRYING TO KILL MYSELF ON IT. I WAS. I CAME OUT HERE TO DIE. AND I DID AS MUCH DOPE AS I COULD EVERY SINGLE DAY. >> A SERIES OF PHOTOS SHOW TRACEY’S DOWNWARD SPIRAL FROM PROMISING COLLEGE GRADUATE, TO ADDICTION TO METHAMPHETAMINE AND HOMELESSNESS. >> I GOT ON MY KNEES JUST RIGHT UP OVER GOT ON MY KNEES AND I ASKED GOD OH PLEASE HELP ME. I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE. >> TRACEY SAYS THAT PRAYER WAS ANSWERED. 2008, APRIL 2ND TO BE EXACT. TRACEY GOT CLEAN. BUT SHE DID NOT GET OFF THE STREETS FOR ANOTHER 18 MONTHS. SIX YEARS CLEAN AND SOBER, TRACEY NOW A HOMEOWNER HAD FOUND HER CALLING, AS A HOMELESS OUTREACH NAVIGATOR. AND SHE WASTED NO TIME. >> I THOUGHT IT WAS THEM, AND NOT ME. THAT SAME OL’ THING ABOUT BLAMING OTHERS. >> TRACEY TAKES US TO HER OLD STOMPING GROUNDS, IT’S CALLED THE ISLAND. HUNDREDS CALL THIS WOODED STRETCH ALONG THE AMERICAN RIVER PARKWAY HOME. AND IT’S WHERE MOST OF HER HOMELESS FAMILY STILL LIVES. >> HEY JEFF, I LOVE YOU MAN. >> JEFF HAS BEEN HOMELESS AND USING METHAMPHETAMINE FOR MORE THAN 40 YEARS. HE AND TRACEY WERE PARTNERS IN CRIME FOR TEN OF THOSE. >> YOU DID EVERYTHING YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO DO. I DON’T KNOW ANYONE THAT’S EVER DONE THAT. NOBODY. >> IT’S TRACEY’S MISSION NOW TO SHOW HER OLD FRIENDS LIKE JEFF THERE IS STILL A WAY OUT. >> WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? >> JEFF, YOU CAN DO WHATEVER IT IS YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO. I DON’T WANT YOU DYING OUT HERE. >> BUT ULTIMATELY, THEY HAVE TO MAKE THE CHOICE TO FOLLOW IN HER FOOTSTEPS. >> TRACEY KNICKERBOKCER HAS BEEN WORKING FOR HOPE COOPERATIVE AS AN OUTREACH NAVIGATOR SINCE 2017. THE ORGANIZATION HAS BEEN PROVIDING MENTAL HEALTH AND HOUSING SERVICES FOR PEOPLE WITH BEHAVIORAL HEALTH AND ADDICTION
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‘I didn’t want to die that way’: Former Sacramento homeless meth addict becomes outreach navigator for others
After 21 years of meth addiction and a decade of homelessness on the streets of Sacramento, Tracey Knickerbocker, 61, said God saved her life so she could show others a path out of homelessness and back to the real world.Knickerbocker is employed as a homeless outreach navigator with HOPE Cooperative, an organization that provides mental health and supportive housing services for people with behavioral health challenges in Sacramento County."I was trying to kill myself on it,” said Knickerbocker as she stood on one of the same streets she used to frequent when she was still homeless in Sacramento County. “I was. I came out here to die, and I did as much dope as I could every single day.”Knickerbocker said she had a privileged childhood and graduated from Vanden High School in Fairfield in 1979. She earned a criminal justice degree from the University of La Verne and eventually graduated from Humphries College in Stockton with a Paralegal Certificate in 1998. But despite her degrees, privileged upbringing and professional success, Knickerbocker had suffered a secret trauma as a teen and began using drugs to cope with the pain. She said experimentation eventually turned into a full-blown, yet secret addiction to methamphetamine. A year later, Knickerbocker was arrested for possession of methamphetamine. The charges were eventually dropped on a technicality, but Knickerbocker said she ended up unemployable, collecting Social Security Disability and living on the streets.“I'm an IV drug user, so I was slamming as much dope as I could every day,” said Knickerbocker, who also said she was spending all of her Social Security benefits to buy more methamphetamine and cigarettes.In 2005, Knickerbocker was arrested a second time for possession of methamphetamine. At this point, she said she was unknowingly living in a drug-induced psychosis. But miraculously, Knickerbocker said something broke inside her and she cried out for help. "I didn't want to die that way, man,” said Knickerbocker as she fought back tears recalling the memory. “Dying out here, homeless, it's sad. It's sad, and it's pathetic. So sad. So, I remember, I got on my knees – just right up over here – got on my knees and I asked God, God oh please help me. I don't want to do this anymore."Knickerbocker said that prayer was answered, and on April 2, 2008, she got clean. But she was still living on the streets, and she continued to live like that, sober and homeless, for another 18 months.“All those people that used to come out by my encampment, bring us water, bring us prayer, bring us socks,” said Knickerbocker. “It started poking holes at my heart."In 2014, after six years clean and sober, Knickerbocker bought her first home, and a year later began working at Sacramento Steps Forward as an outreach navigator. With full-time employment, Knickerbocker stopped collecting her Social Security Disability checks. In 2017, Knickerbocker began working for HOPE Cooperative with the mobile crisis support team.As part of her daily check-ins, Knickerbocker guided KCRA 3's team to an area along the American River Parkway where hundreds of homeless people live. Most of her former homeless friends still live there, including her best friend Jeff Fry. Fry has been homeless and addicted to methamphetamine for more than 40 years, with most of that time spent in Sacramento County. Knickerbocker and Fry were self-described "partners in crime" for ten years."You did everything you said you were going to do,” said Fry as he embraced Knickerbocker outside his campsite along the riverbank. “I don't know anyone that's ever done that. Nobody.”Fry, 61, is the same age as Knickerbocker and admits that living unhoused and addicted to drugs is getting much more difficult as he gets older. Fry said he doesn’t see himself living homeless forever, but he does not have any immediate plans to get into housing.“Jeff, you can do whatever it is you put your mind to,” said Knickerbocker as she embraced Fry. “I don't want you dying out here."Sacramento County’s homeless population has exploded to almost 9,300 people, the highest total on record, according to the latest Homeless Point-In-Time Count. This is a 67 percent increase over the last three years. Another report by Sacramento Steps Forward and Sacramento State showed that between 16,500 and 20,000 separate people will experience homelessness during a one-year period in the county.

After 21 years of meth addiction and a decade of homelessness on the streets of Sacramento, Tracey Knickerbocker, 61, said God saved her life so she could show others a path out of homelessness and back to the real world.

Knickerbocker is employed as a homeless outreach navigator with HOPE Cooperative, an organization that provides mental health and supportive housing services for people with behavioral health challenges in Sacramento County.

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"I was trying to kill myself on it,” said Knickerbocker as she stood on one of the same streets she used to frequent when she was still homeless in Sacramento County. “I was. I came out here to die, and I did as much dope as I could every single day.”

Knickerbocker said she had a privileged childhood and graduated from Vanden High School in Fairfield in 1979. She earned a criminal justice degree from the University of La Verne and eventually graduated from Humphries College in Stockton with a Paralegal Certificate in 1998.

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1979 - Graduated from Vanden High school Fairfield, CA

But despite her degrees, privileged upbringing and professional success, Knickerbocker had suffered a secret trauma as a teen and began using drugs to cope with the pain.

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1999 - Tracey’s first arrest for 3 felonies and 1 misdemeanor all drug-related possession charges.

She said experimentation eventually turned into a full-blown, yet secret addiction to methamphetamine. A year later, Knickerbocker was arrested for possession of methamphetamine. The charges were eventually dropped on a technicality, but Knickerbocker said she ended up unemployable, collecting Social Security Disability and living on the streets.

“I'm an IV drug user, so I was slamming as much dope as I could every day,” said Knickerbocker, who also said she was spending all of her Social Security benefits to buy more methamphetamine and cigarettes.

Knickerbocker
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2005 - Tracey’s second arrest drug-related possession charges.

In 2005, Knickerbocker was arrested a second time for possession of methamphetamine. At this point, she said she was unknowingly living in a drug-induced psychosis. But miraculously, Knickerbocker said something broke inside her and she cried out for help.

"I didn't want to die that way, man,” said Knickerbocker as she fought back tears recalling the memory. “Dying out here, homeless, it's sad. It's sad, and it's pathetic. So sad. So, I remember, I got on my knees – just right up over here – got on my knees and I asked God, God oh please help me. I don't want to do this anymore."

Knickerbocker said that prayer was answered, and on April 2, 2008, she got clean. But she was still living on the streets, and she continued to live like that, sober and homeless, for another 18 months.

Knickerbocker
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04/02/08 "I got clean & sober and discovered food!" she said. 

“All those people that used to come out by my encampment, bring us water, bring us prayer, bring us socks,” said Knickerbocker. “It started poking holes at my heart."

In 2014, after six years clean and sober, Knickerbocker bought her first home, and a year later began working at Sacramento Steps Forward as an outreach navigator. With full-time employment, Knickerbocker stopped collecting her Social Security Disability checks. In 2017, Knickerbocker began working for HOPE Cooperative with the mobile crisis support team.

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2014 - "At 6 years clean & sober I just bought a mobile home," she said.

As part of her daily check-ins, Knickerbocker guided KCRA 3's team to an area along the American River Parkway where hundreds of homeless people live.

Most of her former homeless friends still live there, including her best friend Jeff Fry. Fry has been homeless and addicted to methamphetamine for more than 40 years, with most of that time spent in Sacramento County.

Knickerbocker and Fry were self-described "partners in crime" for ten years.

"You did everything you said you were going to do,” said Fry as he embraced Knickerbocker outside his campsite along the riverbank. “I don't know anyone that's ever done that. Nobody.”

Fry, 61, is the same age as Knickerbocker and admits that living unhoused and addicted to drugs is getting much more difficult as he gets older. Fry said he doesn’t see himself living homeless forever, but he does not have any immediate plans to get into housing.

“Jeff, you can do whatever it is you put your mind to,” said Knickerbocker as she embraced Fry. “I don't want you dying out here."

Sacramento County’s homeless population has exploded to almost 9,300 people, the highest total on record, according to the latest Homeless Point-In-Time Count. This is a 67 percent increase over the last three years. Another report by Sacramento Steps Forward and Sacramento State showed that between 16,500 and 20,000 separate people will experience homelessness during a one-year period in the county.

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Tracey with Sacramento police officer Scott Hall, that knew her when she was homeless.